~ better if u just ignore the post

Ramai org da ckp... hidup tu susah... tmbh2 susah lau melibatkn hati n perasaan org laen...

Sebagai sorang ibu... Mesti la dy nk tgk anak dy hepi kn... As for my mama, she did see that in her daughter when her daughter fallin' deeply madly in love... Naluri ibu ckp... I have to make sure that the guy didn't cheat on her... So she ask the guy herself whether the guy serious 'bout the relationship... It turn out , he is... To him, the relationship is committed for a better future.. But then, this is where the problem starts...

The guy clarifies that he wants to get married with the girl... So the mama wants to make sure that those things will happen by planning for an engagement... Plus, x manis to let her only daughter go for dates without any official ties cz the all the aunties and uncles, and also the cousins will start to talk... To make things worse, those aunties and uncles already know the guy's families cz the guy's mom is mama's best friend and my mak angkat... Another reason, tgn mama sbelah kiri sort of lumpuh... and my grandmother kinda old also.. So both of them kinda put quite a high hope on us selagi they still can move around... Nk dijadikn cerita lg... Every end of the year, mama will hold Kenduri Tahlil... Kebetulan... For Kenduri Tahlil in the end of this year, all the aunties and uncles even dari jauh will come... It'll be like a get-together event... So it makes the hopes even higher..

In contrast to the situation , these two lovers does not really ready for the 'status'... Especially 'bout all the responsibilities for the future... When you already titled as a 'fiancee', of course you have to think for the future... That is what scares them the most... Even though they clarify for the marriage thingy, it doesn't mean that they want it to be this early... They still need some time to settle down... Think things through...

So now... For the girl... She's stuck in the middle.. She can sacrifice her desire, her thought for the sake of both sides... the mama and the guy... But now , her concern is... Will the guy agree to the plan like what the mama hoped for cz the girl kinda already know the guy's thought... And if she goes with the guys thought , how will she tell her mama ? For sure she needs a reason that wont make the guy look bad... In other words, using herself as a reason... But by using herself, for sure the mama will not agree and she'll get a ceramah from mama... The girl loves the guy very much so she didn't want to explain anything or talk about the plan with the guy cz she afraid that the guy will feel as if he's forced for the engagement...

Any decision she choose... She'll break the other person's heart...

The hardest question is ,
Which heart that she have to keep from breaking ?

If she choose the mama and the guy feel like he's been forced for a relationship, the risk of the guy leave the girl's side is high... And if she choose the guy's heart, she'll result in neglecting her mama's own hope.. The mama that gave birth to her, educate her...

People may say , it'll be quite a long time until the end of the year... So you don't have to think bout the answer now... But... What people may not know... This is the hardest question i've ever get... It'll take a very long time to find a solution...

So now, while writing the post
all she can do is crying
and hoping for a better solution
T-T


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