I need to forget what's gone.

and some things just not.

Before you assume that what we hurt you, learn the facts that we are the ones who actually feel the pain. Looking back at all the memories that we've had, most of it were just filled with how you admire others. Can't you notice the people who always stand besides you all this while? Some of the days were always filled with lots of plans... going for girls' day out, shopping, watching movies and what not. But then, when the day actually comes, it was just filled with the 'bad mood' look on your face together with all the rush, talks about 'membazir' and so on and so forth. I wonder why you can go out until late night, or having a day full of excitement with others but not with us. I wonder why the word 'membazir' never comes out from your mouth when you shop with others. I kinda wonder why you need a reason to go out with us but you don't need one with others. I really wonder why. We never forced you into this, you know. We've had enough with the thought that we used you, etc.

Before you judge that we treat you badly, please understand why. Before you said that we are avoiding you, please think. You should realize that you are one who walks in and out of the place without telling us. As if it was only a motel. Now tell us why we should bother to tell you where we were going when you weren't even here. Have you ever count how many times you actually sit and eat with us during the past months? Have you ever count how many times you actually talk to us without interrupting the conversation with messages or phone calls? Where were you when all of us sit together at the table while laughing at all the inside jokes?

I don't think you realize that the worst crime in friendship is abandonment.

Someday, when you think of coming back... 

we might give you a second chance. 

However, you should remember...
Second chance does not always mean happy ending.

Sometimes, it is just a chance for you to end things right.

#youmakemedissappointed

I hope that I am worthy of you.

People can always make plans, but Allah is the one who hold the strings.

Through these past few weeks, I've been busy.. and for that, I am so sorry for the people around me. And when I think that I had just started to breathe, as I am now back in my hometown... my life really had take a major turn.

Getting married is not just about you and your partner.

Its about your family and his'.

Its about how well you can understand each other.

Tolerate.

Sacrifice.

Joy.

... understanding all the elements that you had in you.

and your other half...

and in the end, complement each other.

When I say 'yes' on the day you proposed, I'm aware of the things that I had to face. The thing that I had to learn, and the thing that I had to understand. Getting married to an only son of the family requires me to make a careful considerations. You hold a big responsibility with the family and yet you'll hold another responsibility with me. But I am not that worried. I know who you are, I know that you'll manage. You just had to learn. We had to learn. And when the time comes; when we are worthy of being a partner to each other, our days then will just filled with smiles... :)



#I know that you're worried about me. But no matter how long I'll have to wait,
I'll stay.

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