skali skala wat sengal

td da tulis panjang2
so skrg nk tulis pendek2 lak

hahahahaha


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i'm skipping those emo thingy

Dah.. skrg da maleh nk emo2 neh. so tuk distract me dri emo2 ni... bia me cite sape sbnrnyer HeartGardenias... Name yg me amik sempena bunga Gardenia Jasminoides atau name laennyer Gardenian Augusta... Sape nk tau cmne leh dpt name ni.. Refer la kt older post bulan Oktober 2009. Maleh nk terangkn lg skali... hek2.

Name sbnr HeartGardenias tu Muhammad Ali Mat Tarmizi. Selame ni me x penah nk post mende yg melibatkn dy neh.. Saje nk senyap2 jer. Tp name dy dah terkantoi lak dlm post hot stuff tu. xpela.. nk wat cmne. Dy ni tua 2 taun dri me... Skrg da 22 taun. Best friend dy... Me pn x tau name penuh.. Tp org pggil kwn dy tu Driz.

Alkisahnyer... Me ngan abg neh da jumpe dri kecik lg. Mak abg, me panggil Cik Jah.. ngasuh me mse mama lepas pantang lahirkn me smpaila me umo dua taun. Mama cite... Dulu mse me kecik... Bile mak abg bz nk masak ke.. Sidai kain ke... Abg la yg tukang jage me... Kdg2 mak abg letak me kt riba abg suh abg dok diam2 bg me minum susu. Hahaha... Sian dy jd mangse keadaan. Lau time me tito lak... Abg la yg tolong ayun buai.. Me x igt sume tu sbb me trsangat la kecik mse tu... Tp abg ckp dy igt lg.. Abg ckp... Lepas me pindah... Sblm umah me tu org da start duduk... Abg ad jgk pecah masuk umah tu... Isk2.. Rindu sgt ke ? Hahaha...

Me mintak maaf sgt2 kt abg sbb me x igt abg pn... Yg me tau Cik Jah ad sorang anak lelaki name Ali. Dri lepas me pindah tu... Smpai la mse me tingkatan 4... Stiap kali me dtg , abg slalu xde kt umah. Nape me pn x tau... Bape byk kali me dtg.. Penah jumpe dy skali dua jer.. ;p

First time abg msg me, mse tu me tingkatan 4... Cmne dy dpt no me... biar rahsia jerla. Hahaha... Mse mule2 msg ngan abg tu... Kwn jer... Nk kate suke tu... Ad la jgk... Tp xkn me yg nk start kn... So me diamkn jer... Professional katekn... Dlm mse tu , me x penah dgr suare abg kt fon. Xterfikir pn nk dgr... Me pn x tau nape.. Antare bnde yg paling me igt... Mse tu abg cite kt me dy dpt tawaran smbung blaja kt Politeknik Kota Bharu.. Dy tanye pendapat me dy ptt pegi ke x.. So me pn bg la ceramah kn.. Hahaha... Nasihat... Suh g... Belajar tu penting... Dy ad ckp kt me nape dy tragk2 nk g... Tp xyhla me cite. Bia me sorang je tau. ;p

Me msg ngan dy dlm staun lebih gak kot... Pastu sejak dy smbung blaja, kitorang lost contact. Dy da jrg msg me... Cume ad skali je dy penah kol me. First time dgr suara abg. Tp me x bape igt mse tu. Abg igt. Dy yg ckp kt me dy ad kol. Mse tu kecewa gak sbb dy mcm da bz jer... So mls nk amek port... Kbtulan diatas sebab yg x dpt dielakkn... Me tuka no. Tp me x bg no baru kt abg sbb rase mcm lau bg pn lom tentu dy msg. Hahaha... Tu yg kitorang lost contact. 2 taun lebih gak lost contact... Sejak dri first abg msg tu... me x penah dah g umah abg. 3 taun kot... Smpaila dlm bulan Mei 2009... Me jejak kaki lek kt sane...

First time jumpa abg lek mse tu... Me tergamam gak. Hu... Siyes mse tu abg da laen. Jauh beza dri mse last me jumpa dy sblm dy smbung blaja. Hahaha.. Igtkn da ok da lepas dua taun lebih x contact... Bile jumpa lek tu rase berdebar giler. Cm x caye abg ad dpn mate.. Well... Lepas hari tu.. Abg msg me. Cmne dy dpt no ? Skali lg dirahsiakn... Hahaha... ;p

Mse abg msg me lek tu... Me ad kapel. So me pn msg cm biase jela. Xdela bg respon yg boleh mendatangkn kontroversi ke ap... Kwn biase jela w'laupun me xde perasaan kt kapel me. Me still respect dy even thou ex me tu kaki pukul. Lame2 da x tahan... tu yg putus tu. Time kasih sgt2 la kt abg sbb tolong protect me mse tu... Sumpah mse tu takut giler... Seb baek ad kt taiping mse tu.

Lepas me putus , abg terus masuk jarum. Hahaha... Mslhnyer , dy ni nyer style masuk jarum da laen dri org da.. Lau org laen mintak kapel.. Dy ni terus ckp nk masuk minang.. Hu... Rase pelik je mase tu.. Terfikir gak.. Abg ni demam ke.. Hahaha... Mse tu dy maen2 jer kot.. Tp last2 jd tol2 siyes lak... Ad la proses2 nyer cmne leh jd siyes lak kn.. Parents pn da tau.. Tinggal tggu mse jela kot.. Abes blaja kang... Chet.. Cm x caye.. Harap2 kitorang ader jodoh yg pnjang.. InsyaAllah... ;p

p/s : da x emo da neh.. caye x ? ^_^

be my wonderwall ; will you ?

is it possible ?

i wonder bile zaman emo akn berakhir

quite tired of feelings

i have no idea

how much i wish for my eyes to keep closed

fall asleep

for the rest of my life

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mslhnyer , diorang ni hot stuff ke ?

Sbnrnyer semenjak minggu lepas... me da start rase x sedap ati and it turns out feeling me tu mmg betul... why ? well... let me tell you a story..

Muhammad Ali Mat Tarmizi or you can say bf ke bakal tunang ke.. mane2 la... dy ad sorg je ex-gf sblm me. And that girl... Let just name her Chrissy *bukan name sbnr ye*. Me add dy kt fb cz i wonder cmne la taste abg sblm me kn... It turn out , she is beautiful. Me add dy mmg xde niat laen slain nk tgk muke dy. So afta me da tgk tu... me bia jela minah tu dgn life dy... mmg x contact ke ap pn...

Then , all of a sudden... esoknyer sume bff dy add me kt fb... da start rase x sedap ati da ney... but dgn fikiran positif nyer... me approve jela cz diorang still kwn abg... So I respect them. Just like Chrissy tu... Me x kaco gak minah2 yg laen yg ramai2 neh...

Rupenyer2 , yg me rase x sedap ati tu cz mmg tol la minah2 ni ad agenda diorang yg tersendiri. Dgn sengajenyer , diorang cube nk sakitkn ati me mnggunakan care halus.. sbnrnyer wa bru je sedar fakta ni. Fikir positif nyer pasal ar neh... Salah sorang dari minah2 yg ramai tu , Julie *pn bkn name sbnr* upload la gmbr yg diamik mse taun lepas... Gmbr yg melibatkn abg n ex dy... Agak rapat ar... Sumpah bengang giler kt minah ni... x bengang kt abg cz bkn salah dy. Gmbr mse dy still ngan ex dy kot... Mmg ar rapat. Yg wa x paham , asal gmbr taun lepas bru skrg nk upload ? Da tu... masing2 geng bff tu dok komen2 kt gmbr tu dok cite betape hepi nyer mse tu la.. Mse kuar ngan abg la.. Chet... Giler busuk ati ! xleh tgk org hepi ke ? Mendatangkn kemarahan tol..

Da tu... Bile wa ngamuk kt fb... Secare x sengaje nyer la kn... Minah Julie ni pn komen la... ckp mcm ni eh true colour me... Isk minah tu tol2 x syg mulut.. True kaler pebende sedangkn sume org tau yg me ni mmg ganaz lau da ngamuk... Panas baran kot. Tp ngan abg x penah lg la. Me bkn hipokrit cm dy. Perli me sbb me mencarut ye... Dy tu pn same gak...

Bile abg msg dy ckp leklok suh buang gmbr tu... Tau2 nk melenting. Mencarut gak. Pe masalah pmpuan ni x tau... Abg ckp sal gmbr tu je... Asal tetiba nk hina me lak... Chet... Siyes x sedar diri. Mmg abg pn ngamuk ar bile dy ckp mcm2 sal me... hehehe... *sayang abg*

Me x kisah dy nk kutuk me ckp me x canthek ke ap... Yg penting me brsyukur sbb Allah jdkan me , anggota bdn me lengkap... Boleh belajar sume...

Dy ckp me xde otak... Err... Yg xde otak ni at least reti gak nk eja prkataan 'colour'.. Nk perli me tp eja prkataan colour salah... Ad ke eja colour mcm ni... 'coluor'... Oo.. Another thing... Yg xde otak ni jgk yg tgh wat ijazah skrg.. Lompat kelas mse skola... Ad pengalaman dlm medic... Sumenye yg xde otak ni la yg wat...

Emm... Yg paling x tahan... Dy ckp kaki me gemuk... Hahaha ! Gmbr yg dy tgk n komen tu... Gmbr pkai suar 'boot cut' la.. and angle dy dri tepi sket... Mmgla nmpk mcm tu... Ad jgk org kt dunia ni yg buta fasyen smpai x kenal cutting 'boot cut' cm mane... Hahaha... Weird ! Plus... Dy ckp me gemuk sedangkn dy lg gemuk... Dy ptt masuk rancangan 'Biggest Loser' kot... ;p

Rasenyer tu jela kot... Cite da abes da. Nk lepas geram je sbnrnyer ni... Hek2. Sorry for the harsh words and sentences. ^__^

p/s: name yg wa pkai tuk diorang cm name b**ch x ? Hahaha.. Diorang neh mcm hot stuff jer nk ckp org mcm2... Me pn tau me bkn hot stuff... That's y me x penah nk judge people. But in your case girl.. U don't respect me... So why should I have one for you ?

be my wonderwall ; will you ?

ouh ! tidak !

me bru je one week kt UNISEL ni... tp rase cm da lame...

sumpah rase x saba nk lek... windu umah la...

da la kelas smpai kul 8 mlm... giler arh.. mmg penangan 7 subjek tol...

makin hari terase cm makin emo.

sbb homesick ke ? xpn sbb tension kelas ? or sbb windu .... ?

duh... for sure me x suke emo2 neh..

tiap2 malam nk kasi bengkak mate , lg tmbh pening kepale

hu... cepat ar cuti !

p/s: ap yg me tahu... slame ni me suke tgk cite thriller cm Hostel , Saw .... tp asal skrg tgk Kuch Kuch Hota Hai lak ? rasenye ni emo tahap kritikal da ney...

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its not that hard

certain things , is easier than what we imagine
tak susah pun to do something
when we made our mind for it

...that's how i found what i'm looking for !...


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when words take over

here's just some things to show that me 'hupdate' me nyer blog ni... ignore those lovey dovey mushy stuff... tu bkn jiwe me tu... saje suke2 je ni.. this thing i wrote in November 2008 if i'm not mistaken...

I miss the way you look at me
The time when you were smiling happily

And the way you make me feel everyday
Is more than I could ever wish for

I miss the happiness that you bring
This heavenly feelings in my heart

I miss the feelings that I feel
In the place within your arms

Every time, every moment
I have always miss you

I Miss your eyes
I Miss your smile
I Miss your hugs
I Miss your kiss

I Miss your shoulder when I cry
I Miss the time I spend with you
I Miss having you by my side

My dear...
Hold on to me
And never let me go

dlu mse tulis xde tujukn kt sape2 ni.. skrg ni ad la kot... hahaha. just like what i said , ignore those lovey dovey mushy stuff... *blushing* hahahahaha....

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giler punyer malas !

seriously ! wa malas nk kemas beg !

malas nk lek UNISEL

nk berselubung dlm bilik jer !

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Saye dan naluri kreatif saye

Me ngaku me x kreatif ! Me nyer niat tuk tolong adik me wat duty roaster terbantut sbb me rase hasilnyer akan hancuss lau me yg wat... hahaha. So me berenti tgh2 jalan and beralih arah pade tulis blog ni...

Petunjuk pertama yg menunjukkan hasil nyer akan jadi burok.

Setelah beberapa kali mencube smbil fikir idea...
Me tgk balik ap yg me dah wat.

Saat tu me tau , konfem jahanam duty roaster tu nnt.

So akhirnye me wat keputusan tuk stop.. hahaha.

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saya sayang rumah saya !

Semenjak dua tiga hari lepas... Ad construction going on in front of my house. Well... Skrg kn cuace x menentu. So diorang ni ngah wat longkang besau... sbb bile hujan dpn umah me confirm banjir. Seb baek la x penah smpai masuk umah.. Hek2. Disebabkn Taiping mrupakan tmbt paling lembap kt smenanjung nie.. Confirm2 la kerap hujan. Jdnyer diorang trpkse amik inisiatif mcm ni tuk elakkn bnjir kt me nyer umah... Tp masalahnyer.....................

da togol da garden dpn me nyer umah ! argh... x dpt trime kenyataan !

lori ni la yg menyebabkan pencemaran bunyi yg x terhingga

saba chek nana.. saba..

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kesukaan.kegilaan

kenapa me taruk ini gambar ?

kerana me suke itu gitar ! hahaha

p/s : using blogger in draft now. dan ea sgt best !

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xkire. nk post jgk !

...me nk post new entry. tp me x tau nk cite ap. so...

..me just ckp..

..today is Thursday.. n now is 5.37pm waktu Malaysia..

^_^

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cute sleepyhead

taken mse road trip g umah abg me kt penang.
me trjumpa lek pic ni time me ngah khusyuk browse koleksi picha.
mak su me mengasuh baby ni.
dy sgt chumell ! jd me snap pic dy. hahaha


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Alkisahnye

Mlm smlm me pegi umah mak teh. Kbtulan kazen me bukak tv1 kot , cite sal org g honeymoon tu. So secare tibe2 trkuar la topik dari mama wa sal tarikh tuk wa brtunang , kawen... and honeymoon jgk. Hehe... Wa agk sronok gak mendengar n malu jgk sket. Ye r... mama ngan mak teh borak sal wa ngan abg... xkn xde rase malu kot.. hu... tp kn tetibe ad satu suara sumbang berkata-kata smpaikn sume org kt keliling trkekek dgr...

Chek Nana : Haha... Angah x reti berenang tp angah suke g pantai.
Mak Teh : Dok tepi jela nnt. Tgk je org lalu. X best. Blaja berenang la...
Kazen : Wei... Cmne ko nk berenang ? Lau masuk air ko tenggelam doh.. Lemak ko berat.

Sebaik sahaja ayat tu diutarakan... Secare otomatis nyer tgn me brgerak mencari sasaran dan terus mencubit kaki kazen sorg ni. Yang paling best , me jgk cabut bulu kaki dy. Hahahahahaha. Padan muke... Siot je ayat mamat tuh... Kacau je org ngah berangan.

P/S : Bak kate mama ; ujung taun ni mama wat kenduri tahlil , mama nk lau boleh wat kenduri me brtunang sekali. Maleh brtunang boleh ? Tggu dua taun lg... ^_^

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Musika

.Guitar Acoustic Yamaha F310.
Guitar ni sbnrnyer milik abg wa.
But disebabkn dy bz kje , wa amik alih guitar ni.
Skrg dlm process nk blaja maen guitar. Agak melenguhkn tgn.
Lau nk dibandingkn ngan maen piano ,
wa ske maen piano lg. Tgn x sakit.. Best jer.
Tp nk wat cne , wa xde piano kt umah wlaupun wa reti maen.

Wlau cmne pn... Wa suke aktiviti wa yg satu ni !


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its cute !

.i just can't stop myself from loving the words.

flashback (part 1)

disebabkan skrg ni wa bz in da mood finding old frens... best jgk lau skali skala scan balik memori yg ad sal membe2 lame ni... *fyi ; wa mmg teruk part refresh memory ! Part 1 ni evolves around mse wa ngah skola kt SMK Agama Slim River. Form 1 smpai form 3. Mse ni jugak la wa family wa rajin g melawat sedara n mak angkt wa alias umah 'abg' , kt felda besout. Hahaha... x sgka lak x lame lg nk brtunang... isk3... ;p

FORM 1 n FORM 2
Mse tu wa kelas Ibnu Khaldun. Guru kelas mse tu Cikgu Fauzi , (BM).. Wa rase Cikgu Fauzi jgk guru kelas wa mse form 2. Antara mende yg x munasabah yg wa slalu wat , tito dlm kelas. Hahaha. Al-kisah penghuni kelas Khaldun zaman tu... *reference name dari zikroyat sbnrnyer. wa x igt tiap2 org dlm kelas wa dlu. ^_^

Qayyum - wa confem igt dak ni. dy ni suke cari pasal ngan wa. Haish. saba jela. bkn dy sorg je sbnrnyer.
Syafiq - Sowie la. Wa x de memory sal dak ni. Tp wa rase dy ni pendiam.
Ideris - Ha ! Dy ni garang. Rasenyer wa penah gak kne marah ngan dy.
Aziz - Dy ni la Ketua Kelas mse form 1. Tp wa x igt pape pn sal dy. Hahaha.
Shahira @ Shira - Eh... Wa cam dy ni sape. Tp wa x igt sgt la sal dy.
Amira - Lau x salah dy ni penah jd dak dorm wa dlu. budak hutan melintang. diantara org yg kuat gado ngan shahrul affendi , selain machi la.
Alya - Alya Husna. wa penah gak satu dorm ngan dy. tp bknke dy pindah mse dy form 2 kot...
Hafizah - pija. mse form 1 n 2 ni x bape rapat ngan dy. tp mse form 3 rapat la jgk. diantara org yg slalu usik wa ckp wa adik angkt wani ramli. hahaha.
Hayati - bg wa dy ni garang jgk. kdg2 wa takut nk ckp ngan dy. tegas kot. tp mse form 3 , wa train maen congkak ngan dy ar... kt bilik tv.
Ain - satu dorm ngan wa. leh kate bestie wa jgk. mane2 mesti ngan dy n machi.
Mashitah - wa penah gado ngan dy mse form 1. pas dri tu bru kitorang rapat. machi marotah eh..
Nadiah - x salah wa... org dy putih2. ckp pn lembut jer...
Diana - diana elina kot. mse ni x bape rapat ngan dy gak. borak2 kosong jer.
Majidah - cam dy. tp x de memori sgt la sal dy sbb kurg rapat.
Filzah - lau x salah , bile dy ckp leh tahan laju. putih... muke cm cine sket.
Shazwani - wani ramli. hahahaha. kelaka dy ni.
Huda - khairil huda. pn kurang rapat. tp wa cam sama dy.
Azizi - wa cm muke dy. mcm dlu kecoh gak dy ni dlm kelas.
Ku Afiq - dy ni same hometown ngan wa. so igt la jgk.
Mazuan - cam muke dak ni jer. n yg wa tau dy ni tinggi n pendiam.
Shahrul - isk... suke cari gado. pelik2 jer. sorry to say la ... wa slalu gak ckp dy ni poyo.
Fadhlul - wa cm muke dy gak. karakter natural. x kecoh sgt... diam la jgk.

antara list org yg wa tol2 kurang igt wlaupun da bape kali refresh - shahira (other shahira beside shira ) , zahir , hafiz (ad 2 hafiz n due2 wa x igt) , rofiq , a guy named 'ana' in the book , fadli , kt buku ni tulis 'sharuil' tp wa rase name dy syamil , nazril.

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'another year' that comes

i don't care whether my life was just a lyrical notes , rhythmic chords or fascinating rhapsody ;
i just care for how the harmonies turn out to be .
i don't care whether my life was just a simple sketch , colorful painting or amazing masterpiece ;
i just care for how valuable the view would be .

everything that i care ,
will be the life for me
life for the 'another year' that comes .

- the chords by NANA , 2 January 2010

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let me keep it in my heart

New Year ...
the start of something new.

There's not much i can do yet,
but i want to give it my all.
I'll just stay the same if i don't do anything.
Even if it's just a small thing,
Even just one baby step,
I know it'll bring me to my future.

be my wonderwall ; will you ?